It must have been a few weekends ago, it was the first night of Harvest Fest. I don't think I've ever seen such a star-packed sky before. It left me speechless. There were so many stars that instead of being black, the night sky was a navy blue. As I stood there, in the cold after a night of drugs and partying, something happened. I can't really describe what was going through my head, all I can say is it made me really happy.
It was a magical weekend. The warmth of the fires, the colourful leaves, the fairy-tail setting and the sweet smell of nature left me feeling peaceful. I think it was the starting point of what seems to be an ongoing general positive mood.
Put simply, I’ve felt pretty fucking good lately.
I just took a look at my last post and I can't believe the mental state I was in. I don't even remember feeling that way! I'm so happy with things right now. My routine is up and running and my level of productivity is as high as it’s ever been! I can't believe how motivated I've been lately. I don't know how I do it but I've been living off of six and a half hours of sleep. You might think I'm ridiculous, but it's awesome! I've always told myself that I'm the kind of guy who needed endless hours of sleep and yet who always feet tired. Well fuck, I don't feel anymore tired then I used to and I get way more shit done.
I think this positive mood has to do with the fact that I have grasped a new understanding of myself and it feels like so much weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I'll try to talk more in detail about this in a latter post, I'm having troubles putting it into words right now.
One last thing. I am SO happy to be back in Toronto surrounded by people I love.
Go life! lol
